Um . . . . What do two pink lines mean?

About one month ago Cory and I thought I might be pregnant so we went down to the store and got a at-home pregnancy test. Good news: I'm pregnant! We have been so excited and really wanted to scream it from the roof tops! (After 7 years of marriage we finally figured out what went where) Not really, but still, this is huge for us. We have been really happy with our life together with just the two of us and I am still happy that we took our time to decide we were ready to start a family. Still though, that last couple of months have been lonely, and I know that feeling has been because my life is ready for a child. I can't wait!

We went to the doctor on Wednesday for out first ever pregnant doctor's visit! I was told, by the books and several people, that I would be able to hear the heart beat and everything. I could not wait. The morning of that day I had butterflies in my stomach and I felt as though it would not get here soon enough. Cory only worked half the day and then got off at lunch so we could go down together. As we rode, we hoped for good news. "I just hope that the baby is healthy" we said over and over.

When we got to the doctor's office I spent a great deal of time filling out paper work. Then we went into the doctor's room and spent a great deal more time asking a answering questions. Finally, the time we had all been waiting for came! I got up on the table.

Both my eyes and Cory's were fixed on the small computer screen that looked like a big black hole with static all over it. Somewhere in there was our baby and I was only a few seconds away from having it pointed out to me.

"It looks like there are two"

(baby#1 in the middle of the black hole, baby#2 on the bottom)
"It looks like there are two"
The words that have changed my life upside down!

I felt like I was having an out of body experience. This is not happening! Twins? This is not happening! I can't do this. This is not what I planned for! Twins?!?
I remember coming back down to earth when I felt my husband's hand grasping tighter to mine. He was saying "Oh, wow! How neat! Wow!" I started crying for many reasons: I was happy, I was scared, I felt like I had somehow lied to my husband because I told him we were going to be having baby and now we were having two, and yet he was happy about it, and I was the one terrified. Twins????

Five days have gone by and my mind is still blown away every time I think about. This is going to be the biggest adventure of my life. I will cry. I will laugh. I spend more money then I thought. I will smile. I will get really big! I will hurt. I will enjoy. I will be excited. I will be thankful. I will think. I will grow. I will understand. And I will learn of love that no other experience in my life will teach me. I will be a mom.